Dear nature...you suck too!

I've said it before and I will say it again. Nature and I just don't mix anymore. I used to love going outside and enjoy the sun and listen to that stupid mocking bird that just wont shut up, but in order to stay well I am having to give up the outdoors and stay inside as much as possible.

I have always been allergic to poison ivy and poison oak. When I was a little girl I would get it so bad that my parents would have to take me to the hospital. Well my neighbors have continued to burn brush on their property and the must be burning poison ivy because over the weekend I woke up with it. The feeling was all too familiar. My throat burned and was tight. My eyes itched and I had a rashes on me from head to toe. The back of my neck was covered in rashes and it was so bad that my lymph nodes swelled up and I could barely move my neck. Yes, you suck nature!!

My doctor was able to call in some steroids for me yesterday so I know relief has to be right around the corner. Unfortunately, my diabetes isn't helping the situation at all and in fact it could be the reason why I am so prone to getting poison ivy so bad and then having trouble getting rid of it.

If it isn't one thing...it's another. My body is trying to fight off the poison (again) and that causes my body a lot of stress, then if you add steroids to the mix it equals extremely high blood sugars which then equals major headaches, exhaustion, nausea, and tada...ketones.

I want so badly to feel normal. It is hard to explain, but most of the time it is a real "out of body" experience for me. I don't really know any other way to put it. I keep pushing myself though and praying for a better tomorrow. I know things have to get better. I try to stay strong and not get knocked down, but it's tough.

Itchy...again,
Kimberlee

So You Had A Bad Day?

Today has been a terrible day. I don't know any other way to put it. My sugar is up, I am tired, I have no energy at all, and I feel horrible both mentally and physically.

I hate feeling this way but it is a feeling that I am very familiar with. My family and friends really don't understand how I feel and when I try to explain it to them it just doesn't make sense.

I try not to use diabetes as an excuses, but what else could it be? I am usually a happy person full of love and energy but since I have been sick I feel like I am the total opposite. The way I feel is not something I am proud of, in fact I hate it. I feel like like I am a little kid on a play ground and a big bully is pushing me around...the bully being diabetes.

I have school work to catch up on already and my mood isn't helping the situation. I try to do my homework but all I want to do it curl up in a ball and sleep today away.

Tomorrow better be a better day for me, I can't take another day like today.


Praying for better tomorrow
-Kimberlee

I'm Alive

Hey everyone! Fear not..I am still alive! Things are just now starting to improve since my last post. I was super itchy for weeks. Yucky poison ivy really brought me down. I had to go back to my doctor this week and get another shot of pretisone. Although the predisone helps with all the side effects of poison ivy, it creates a new problem for me....higher blood sugars.

I am trying to be a responsible diabetic and keep a close watch on my blood sugars, but I am so tired of being responsible. That is horrible isn't it? I didn't ask for diabetes and I didn't ask for the responsibilities that come with it. I was just a chosen one. Grrr..Diabetes is such a bully!

My doctor said that my body is trying to fight off the poison but it is having a really hard time. Like I said in the past, type 1 is an autoimmune disease. This means the bodies immune system is also attacked by this disease. It is extremely easy for me to catch icky infections and really hard for me to get rid of them. So, if you are sick...please stay away :)

On a much happier note..my birthday is Sunday! I have been trying to get my husband to let me celebrate "me" all week, but so far he hasn't allowed it. Booo! My doctor gave me an insulin pen for my birthday, so I am pretty excited about that..although my endo probably won't be. Speaking of my endo...I have to make an appointment with him next week and have some test done. I really dislike my endo but my doctor insists that I be nice to him. I will keep you all updated on how that goes, maybe pray that God gives me patience.

Happy Weekend to you and Happy Birthday to Me!
-Kimberlee

Apple Griddle Cakes..yummy!


2large apples , peeled and finely chopped (Jonagold or Granny Smith)
2tsp fresh lemon juice
1 1/2cup low carb baking mix
2tbsp SPLENDA® No Calorie Sweetener, granulated
2tsp baking powder
1/2tsp ground cinnamon
1/4tsp salt
1medium eggs , slightly beaten
1 1/2cup whole milk
3tbsp vegetable oil (or melted butter)
1butter flavored cooking spray (optional)
1cup unsweetened applesauce (optional)

1 In a medium bowl, combine apples and lemon juice.
2 In another medium bowl, combine baking mix, SPLENDA, baking powder, cinnamon, and salt.
3 In a small bowl combine egg, milk, and oil.
4 Add egg mixture all at once to flour mixture and stir just until moistened (the batter should be lumpy). Gently fold in apple mixture.
5 Heat a lightly greased griddle or heavy skillet over medium heat (until a few drops of water dance across the surface).
6 For each pancake, pour a scant 1/4 cup batter onto the hot griddle, spread batter into a 4-inch circle.
7 Cook for 1 to 2 minutes on each side or until pancakes are golden, turning to second sides when pancake surfaces are bubbly and edges are slightly dry, adding oil to griddle as necessary.
8 Serve warm. If desired, top with applesauce.

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